I dont want my relationship with you to be like this
Half the time I don’t want to see you, at all.
But I do.
I do love you, I really do.
you and I are on different levels
we always have been
we always will be.
I’ve always hated that fact, always
I wish I could have a better relationship with you
I wish you could be a little younger, where your mind isn’t deteriorating
I’ve always hated the fact that you could never accept me for who I am
I’ve always hated the fact that you have to contradict everything I say
I’ve always hated the fact that you always had something to bitch about to me, about me.
Are we the same people?
Dad always said we were
He says we’re both hardheaded, distant from society, independent
He always said to me that you and I live in our own worlds
Your world is far from mine, and mine from yours
Maybe we are the same person
Maybe that’s why I can’t stand your voice sometimes
Maybe that’s why I instantly become aggravated with the things you say to me
I love you, but I can’t be around you for very long
I don’t want to leave you, because you’ve always been here for me
I don’t ever want to loose you, although death finds that inevitable.
I’ve never been around death.
I’ve never gotten close to any human long enough to where they die
I keep to myself, almost for that exact reason
Death is inevitable, I know I’ll loose both of you eventually
Maybe that’s why I haven’t moved out yet, because I want to spend as much time as possible with both of you
I hate fighting with you
I really do